"Life is a carousel of four seasons"
Helena Conway has fallen in love.
But not unprovoked.
Kit Isley is everything she’s not—unstructured, untethered,
and not even a little bit careful.
It could all be so beautiful … if he wasn’t dating her best friend.
Helena must defy her heart, do the right thing, and think of others.
Until she doesn’t.
Don't read F*ck Love. Ever. If you respect my opinion you won't read it. Because I want to keep this book solely for myself. I don't want to share it. I don't want to share Helena and Kit. I don't want to share the twisted fairytale that these beautiful words by Tarryn Fisher have created.
F*ck Love wasn't the book I expected it to be, I went in thinking it would be a horribly twisted love story that ended incredibly sadly and I was partly wrong.
I saw so much of myself and my own story in Helena that it was almost like reliving parts of my life I rather wouldn't. It awakened hurt in my heart that I had forgotten.
"No one tells you that it hurts this much to be a grown up. That people are so complicated they end up hurting each other to self preserve"
Thankfully the hurt it awakened was just a memory. My hurt was healed by my own Kit many years ago in a similar way. Having your heart broken is the hardest and best way to find yourself and discover who you really are. However learning to love yourself is hard when you think no else will ever love you.
I found Helena to be a few confusing multiple personalities rolled into one, normally this would grate on my nerves horribly but I think it added to the self discovery that was so clearly evident in F*ck Love. It added to the charm that was Helena and it added depth and growth to the story. Helena went through the confusion, pain and self preservation that we all go through at some stage in our lives and this particular story showed the better side of it. Where as most take the negative way and dwell on there circumstances, Helena turned it into a positive. She used her heartbreak to discover who she was and to make the changes she believed she needed to make to get her Happily Ever After. She left toxic relationships and a city she never truly loved to move to one she did and create new relationships with more positive people.
One of those toxic relationships was her friend Della. Della was a secondary character that I did not like. I knew a few chapters in that she was going to remind me of toxic people who used to be in my life and I feel like that was exactly what Tarryn wanted you to feel.
I could never praise Tarryn enough for the beautiful story she's created. This story was everything it needed to be and everything I needed it to be. Every character she created reminded you of a type of person you may have had in your life and I believe helped you relate to the story so much more. She created a heroine that we are all probably far closer to being then we want to be and she created a hero who was everyone else's hero before he was yours.
I'm all for #LoveIsLove and finding love in whatever way it happens to find you but I do love my typical HEA's so I had reservations going into this book. I wasn't convinced that I would love this book because I knew it wasn't going to be your normal HEA but I take all of those reservations back. F*ck Love is without a doubt a 5 star read for me. I loved everything about this book, the good, the bad and the ugly! This is only my second Tarryn Fisher book but with this one story she has without a doubt become an automatic one-click Author for me, Even if she is a Slytherin! I can't wait to see what twisted Fairytale she brings out next, and in the meantime I'll be spending the next few weeks reading every word of Tarryn's that I can get my hands on!
Oh and my absolutely favourite part of this book? The 50 million Harry Potter references!! LOVE!
I'm so thankful I started off my reading year with F*ck Love, but I'm also regretting it because I don't see anything topping this story anytime soon.
About The Author: Tarryn Fisher
Tarryn Fisher is the New York Times and USA Today Bestselling Author of nine novels. She is the founder of a fashion blog called Guise of the Villain. Tarryn resides in the Seattle area with her family. She loves rainy days, Coke, and thinks Instagram is the new Facebook. Tarryn is represented by Amy Tannenbaum of the Jane Rotrosen Agency.
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